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Tog ungeför 1h 30 minuter att få ihop den. Gramatiken är förmodligen sämst (jag är trött)
Baserad på Breath me av Sia.
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Namn: Breath be
Gernre: Ångest (?)
Varningar: Känsligt matreal
Pairings (klaga inte på svengelska): RukixKai
POV: Ni läser den ur Rukis perspektiv
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Ni får gärna lyssna på sången medans ni läser
Ni får gärna lyssna på sången medans ni läser
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Two days ago, bloody wrists, bloody hands, knife beside me... what will I do with my life? I can't hide it forever can I? I need to do it again… I can't just hide it. The knife is right over there. Just one more time, this will be the last time.
Help, I have done it again
"I HATE YOU!!" and the mirror broke into pieces as I smashed my fist into it. The blood is everywhere and I can't hide it. They will be here in one hour, I can't clean this mess up in one hour... this will probably be the day I tell them, I just want to do it one more time.
I have been here many times before
I don't like them to be here. Sure, I do love them… especially him, but it doesn't feel right, he's my friend. God! Can't they just leave already? I hate myself for this, I hate them, I love them.
"I have to go to the bathroom." Sitting on the bathroom floor again with a piece of broken mirror. This is heaven, I'm alive.
Hurt myself again today
Fuck! My pillow is soaked again and it smells. The acrid smell from salty tears and blood isn't nice then you're trying to sleep. I need to change my pillowcase again, forth time this week and it's just friday.
And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame
"I love you" I never thought I would tell you that. Oh no! Why did I do it? The angst fills me up in the matter of a second and I hate myself. I shouldn't have done it. You will hate me now. Terrified of what will come next I run to the door and out of the house. It's raining, great.
Be my friend
Broken, sad, angry, terrified, hate. One hour maybe? I don't know, I don't keep track of time when I'm out in the rain, letting everything go and just let myself die inside. What's that? Is it the sound of running feet?
"AH!" I'm on the ground, my head hurts. Someone is on top if me, it's warm, it feels safe.
Hold me, wrap me up
Strong arms, a beating heart. Something cold again me head. Where am I?
Soft whispers. Is that you? Yes it is! NO! YOU CAN'T SEE ME LIKE THIS! I run, but I can't find the door out. You scream, I scream back. Black.
Unfold me, I am small and needy
I finally let myself fall asleep in your arms. You know everything don't you? I hate you, I love you. Your breath against my neck… what can I say? It's warm, steady, calm, safe. It's wet, did I cry? Turn around, you lay there with a soft smile on your lips. Are you awake?
"Hold me…"
Warm me up… and breathe me
Help, I have done it again
"I HATE YOU!!" and the mirror broke into pieces as I smashed my fist into it. The blood is everywhere and I can't hide it. They will be here in one hour, I can't clean this mess up in one hour... this will probably be the day I tell them, I just want to do it one more time.
I have been here many times before
I don't like them to be here. Sure, I do love them… especially him, but it doesn't feel right, he's my friend. God! Can't they just leave already? I hate myself for this, I hate them, I love them.
"I have to go to the bathroom." Sitting on the bathroom floor again with a piece of broken mirror. This is heaven, I'm alive.
Hurt myself again today
Fuck! My pillow is soaked again and it smells. The acrid smell from salty tears and blood isn't nice then you're trying to sleep. I need to change my pillowcase again, forth time this week and it's just friday.
And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame
"I love you" I never thought I would tell you that. Oh no! Why did I do it? The angst fills me up in the matter of a second and I hate myself. I shouldn't have done it. You will hate me now. Terrified of what will come next I run to the door and out of the house. It's raining, great.
Be my friend
Broken, sad, angry, terrified, hate. One hour maybe? I don't know, I don't keep track of time when I'm out in the rain, letting everything go and just let myself die inside. What's that? Is it the sound of running feet?
"AH!" I'm on the ground, my head hurts. Someone is on top if me, it's warm, it feels safe.
Hold me, wrap me up
Strong arms, a beating heart. Something cold again me head. Where am I?
Soft whispers. Is that you? Yes it is! NO! YOU CAN'T SEE ME LIKE THIS! I run, but I can't find the door out. You scream, I scream back. Black.
Unfold me, I am small and needy
I finally let myself fall asleep in your arms. You know everything don't you? I hate you, I love you. Your breath against my neck… what can I say? It's warm, steady, calm, safe. It's wet, did I cry? Turn around, you lay there with a soft smile on your lips. Are you awake?
"Hold me…"
Warm me up… and breathe me
Kommentarer
Postat av: XxXKonekoXxX
sv: ska jag ta det som att du tyckte den var bra? XD har lite svårt att tyda vad du menade XD hahahaha XD
*love ya<333*
Postat av: XxXKonekoXxX
sv: naw tackisar <33333
Postat av: Matilda
Du är så duktig. Det här är jättebra.
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